Friday, January 14, 2011

Puisi Dalam Diari Sekolah??

Read this. I found this not-so-complete puisi in my school diary (2009). No date found. Seriously can't recall what is it about.

Pada setiap kelipan mata
pada setiap hembusan nafas
terbit sepasang mata yang ku puja
bersama cinta pernah hadir dan kini beransur pudar
sekarang hanya tinggal sepasang mata memerhatiku
sepasang mata yang ku perhati

Bertahun lamanya aku berpendirian teguh
dan janji lama masih digenggam
dan terbenam dalam dendam
kau masih terkapai-kapai dalam desakan bisu dari aku
juga masih lemas dalam semangat lalu

Masa depanmu sudah pasti hanya wangiku di sebelah kiri
dan badannya di kanan tersenyum sinis dengan makna menjangkaui minda


Kimi Ismawi

Monday, January 3, 2011

On 3 Months and a Flashback

Let us all take a few minutes to have a flashback on 'A Huge Test For His Humble Servant' post.

Setting: McDonald's, Masjid Jamek.
It was September 3rd, 2010. He bought everyone ice creams. I remember Adek passed the ice cream to everyone, except me. Then came my beloved Mr. Blabbermouth (back then, not-so-beloved) and gave me my ice cream. I ate half of it, right? Yes, I did, because I was in the situation when I was not supposed to eat ice cream (flu... because of the aircond. no swine flu lah, confirmed). I gave back the other half to him on my way out. I crossed the road with my friends to get to 7E, and I saw him with my ice cream, sitting in front of McD's (I think I saw a cig in your hand, b?). 1 month and 7 days after that I am already head over heels for him!

So here's the thing I would like to point out here. It took him such a short time to get me to love him. Exactly, what the hell? A few hours ago (around 5:30am) I asked him what did he do to me. He told me it was the ice cream that I gave back to him that he sent out for baca-baca thingy santau whatever crap. Bwahahahaha! xD

Not that I believed him being so syirik, but he fulfilled my craving for weird statements. Hehe.. =p
I've learnt my lesson. Never ever give your left over to anyone.. Hahaha...

So we're together for almost 3 months now. Some say if the pair can make it through for more than 3 months, then they are most likely made for each other. All I want to believe is we are made for each other, 3 months or no 3 months. But whatever it is, I am still grabbing him, holding him tight so that no one can take my boo away from me.
Read: A Canon camera stole him from me. Now I have a 'love and hate' relationship with all of the Canon(s). Oh, I fear other chicks and his gay friends might steal him from me.... who doesn't sayang their partners anyway? I know I love mine :)

May my dear Fadly Ishak love me as much as I love him, forever. Amin.

Pray for us.



Oh damn.... I really miss his cheeky smiles....... =(



January 3rd, 2011
11:33am

Kimi Ismawi

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Shhh.... Tolong Jangan Kejutkan Aku....

Kecelaruan itu tetap ada tiap kali aku terjaga
ianya menjerut leher,
langsung terus pernafasanku minimal
dan satu soalan selalu terkeluar ialah
"pernahkah engkau kisah?"


Harapan yang berlegar dalam ruang kecil minda aku,
adakah ianya terlalu rapuh untuk disentuh?


Sedang engkau ketawa
akulah yang meraung kesakitan untuk didengar segenap semangatmu
semangatmu yang aku minta akan selalu dekat dengan tubuhku,
ketika aku cuba berdiri
engkaulah yang aku harapkan menghulur tongkat untukku terus berjalan ke arah sinar matamu yang terlalu malap, songlap


Sekarang aku tahu nikmat lena di riba mimpi
berselimutkan amarah
bertemankan mimpi indah yang jarang menjenguk ketika aku bangun


Aku tetap mahu tidur
Tidak mahu diganggu celaru


Shhh....
Tolong jangan kejutkan aku....




Jan 1, 2011
01:55pm


Kimi Ismawi